Last night I had a terrible dream that Liliana went to the hospital and died tragically. The images were quite graphic and filled with emotion. I felt total shock, emptiness and the most intense sadness I've ever known. In the midst of this awful nightmare, I fought to wake up and come back to reality. Once I was finally awake, I struggled for hours to shake off the feelings associated with the dream. I checked on Liliana and held her close, trying to impress my stubborn and sleepy mind with the fact that she truly was safe and sound.
For the rest of the night, my heart ached. I prayed to God and faded in and out of restless sleep. I awoke this morning feeling exhausted and emotional, but so glad to hear my sweet daughter's voice. As a result of my difficult night, I have a renewed wonder and appreciation for her, and I desire to soak up every moment with my precious child. The challenges of motherhood now seem rather insignificant, while the little pleasures appear so grand.
Although I do not wish to have another experience like the one last night, I am thankful for the renewed perspective it inspired. Not only will I enjoy my family more fully, but I will seize this day. I will leave loved ones with loving words. And I will not miss an opportunity to live out loud!
In the words of Charles Swindoll, "Today is unique. It has never occurred before and it will never be repeated. At midnight it will end, quietly, suddenly, totally. Forever. But the hours between now and then are opportunities with eternal possibilities."
Thank you for being here. May God bless you and yours! Ramona
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