Reflections on Infertility

I've had a great deal of time to reflect on our journey through infertility and adoption. If I had it to do over again, there are certainly some things I'd do differently.

Most importantly, I would put complete faith in the Lord and trust in His provision. Although I felt that I fully depended on Him during our attempts to get pregnant, I now realize that there were times I pursued my selfish desires instead of waiting on the Lord. My yearning for a child was so profound and intense that I could not see straight, let alone make the wisest decisions at every moment.

Of course, hindsight always seems to offer a much clearer perspective than the vision that's present in the thick of emotional and physical strife. My faith was in its infancy during the majority of our fertility treatments, and now that it's growing and maturing, I have a greater ability to trust and rest in the Lord.

Looking back, I did pretty well with what I was given, but I definitely see areas in need of improvement. You live and learn. Now I am in the process of allowing that wisdom to guide us in the right direction.

Adopting is one of the best things we've ever done, and I am hopeful that our family will continue to grow by that means. I'm so thankful that God led us to be adoptive parents, even if it took many roadblocks and detours to get there. Infertility is a long road, one that we'll continue to travel for many years to come.

There is nothing more challenging and fulfilling that being a mother. Thank you for encouraging and supporting me along the way!

Dressed up for Liliana's "Buh-Bye Pull-ups" party. Liliana requested silly dress up clothes and a homemade chocolate cake. Notice the remnants on her face! We try to have fun around here!