My heart is very heavy today. On this day last year, my father passed away...and all of the emotions associated with his life and death have suddenly come to the surface. I'm not very good at being sad. I come from a long line of strong and independent women, so it's uncomfortable for me to experience sorrow. I'm also a very positive person, so feeling down doesn't really fit in to my agenda. Rather than allowing myself to be in the moment, I'd much rather focus on the needs of others so that I can minimize my own grief.
That being said, things aren't going well on the IVF front. The bleeding has been very heavy since yesterday morning. Dr. Silber's IVF team can't figure out why this is happening. They're going to meet with Dr. Silber this afternoon to confer about this anomaly. They are supposed to call me back before the close of business today.
In God's perfect timing, Casting Crowns' "Praise You in this Storm" just began playing on JoyFM as I sit here needing to do exactly that. [Scroll down to see the lyrics to the song in my 2nd post.] Now I can't help but smile and thank the Lord for the many, many blessings in my life. Speaking of which, my precious Liliana is dancing around on the bed shouting, "Wiggle, wiggle!" What a joy.
Time to jump on the bed like a two-year-old and forget my cares for awhile. Thank you for being here.
3 comments:
Good morning Mona.
I'm so sorry that things aren't going as well as you had hoped with the IVF. I know you have alot of faith and all I can say is to hold your head up and keep praying. I can't imagine what you have been going through, but my prayers and thoughts are with you today.
Ramona,
I am so sorry! I hope that you will get news from Dr. Silber's Team soon, with a clear answer to what is going on.
I feel for you on this anniversary of your dad’s death! All these medications really don’t help with the sorrow! It just makes every heartache feel a gazillion times worse! Big hugs!
But I admire your strength and faith! God’s timing is perfect for all of us, I sometimes struggle with that!
Hope for good news!
My prayers are with you,
Andrea
Ramona:
I've been wondering about you since we last spoke on Tuesday!! I couldn't believe you had to wait until Friday for the tests, knowing you were bleeding/cramping. I've been saying prayers and thinking about you. I wanted to get an update so I went to your handy blog and it's GOOD NEWS!! GREAT news!!! I'm SOOOO HAPPY FOR YOU AND WADE (AND LILIANNA)!!! This is so wonderful to hear. Don't worry...everything happens for a reason. So, even if you have to wait another month, I do believe that God realizes what great parents you are and will definitely bless you with one, two or even more children. A person with your faith and perserverance will be rewarded (well even more as you do have Lilianna). I did not know your Dad passed away last year at this time. I'm very sorry. But you have another angel pulling strings for you...so that's comforting during this trying time. Congratulations on the promising news and we will keep you all in our prayers. PS. I'm very impressed with your site. You're quite the techno wizard. :)
Take care of yourself!!
Stacy
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